I noticed there is still a steady stream of visitors to my ranting space here, and I would like to thank everyone for letting me be part of your lives. I realized I have not been blogging for almost ten days now, and in the blogosphere it is a very long time. I have been under tremendous stress lately, which stems from my job and my environment. I do admit too that I am developing an obsession for my work and my weight, and both come with specific line of targets. I also noticed I am getting messy and clumsy, and having a bad sinus infection going towards last weekend did not help. I also banged the sides of my car twice while going to the parking area of my office these past 2 weeks. Yes, it has been a bad 2 weeks.
I will attempt to put Leona’s slot in soon too, and I do apologize for not doing that last week as I had to rest at home. Having read her latest blog entry in regards to the benign cyst within her breast, a lot of worries came to mind. As a transsexual female, I would face the same risks and challenges, and I do admit that my lifestyle habits like consuming alcohol places me in a position where danger lurks in the future. And I have very little cash to do regular medical checkups. But I guess in the end, moving on with life with a positive mind helps, and it starts by getting stress out of my life. And of course, exercise and water is always essential.
I never let situations bog me down before, and life does attempt to knock me down again and again. However, I should remind myself that I am still standing. Many would not stand by me, but at least I would learn how to stand alone. I am not exactly everyone’s favourite person, and as a transsexual there will often be bias, even from some quarters of the LGBT community. But looking at the mirror, if there are transsexual lives to affirm or to save, the first one should be the girl on the reflection. I should also recognize that stress kills. Because just like you are what you eat, you also are what you think. Having said that, I am not going to let all these situations keep me down. I will get on up, and keep on moving, as I always will.